When we talk about finding your inner goddess I usually roll my eyes a bit, you know like when you see an instagram of affirmation over a sunset or the #blessed.
This is unless you are talking about my dear friend Liza Voloshin.
Liza has a quality that means you will actually believe that she's not just in touch with her inner goddess but has legit just stepped off Mount Olympus. You might think it's down to her statuesque height and long flowing hair, but it's more the fact that she is both very sensual and very composed. That there's a supreme calm and warmth to the way she envelopes you in a hug, yet I also think she can probably kill a man with one hand (I have 0 evidence to back this up by the way) but I'm going to trust my gut on it.
Most of all there's something unique in the way Liza has been the glue that has held together my group of friends, multinational companies, human beings and yet we so rarely saw her using her magic powers to help herself, to show her own talents.
Until now. Recently Liza has gone from 0 to 60 as a photographer and filmmaker and her work is human, beautiful, slick. Her confidence blindsided me when I struggle so much with my own creative anxiety so I had to ask - Goddess Liza how did you finally find a way roar for your own talents?
Firstly Liza, Tell us a little about you? What is your background where did you grow up?
I am filmmaker dedicated to discovering and sharing joy. I was born in Soviet Estonia, and immigrated to Chicago during the fall of the USSR. Growing up in the midwestern suburbs of America was like a comfortable hazy nightmare. My parents tried so hard to achieve the safety that they struggled to have their whole lives, and it imprinted the idea of generational trauma haunting us no matter how far removed we are geographically. Even though my middle America accent made me fit in, I always felt alone, and it wasn’t until I moved to New York that I grew into my self and my purpose.
What does the concept of a “goddess mean to you?”
The goddess is an energy inside all of us, regardless of gender. It’s a powerful feminine force that helps us to create and cooperate.
You recently have had much success with your own film and photography how do you think your awakening your own creative voice?
I always daydreamed of being an artist, but I was raised that it could only be a hobby. I thought that a ‘real job’ was important for security and safety, that ‘real success’ meant making a lot of money, and that if it wasn’t hard, I was probably doing it wrong. So I thought investment banking and developing businesses for other people were my path to security and success. But one day, a new friend took me to an occult store in the East Village called Enchantments. We bought an uncrossing kit that guides you through a meditation to unblock what it is that holds you back, and did it together that afternoon. I cried for hours, and thought it didn’t work. I didn’t know that crying is receiving information. A seed was planted, and I started painting every day, then borrowed my boyfriend’s camera, and then made my first movie on an old 8mm camera I found at a flea market. I made my first short films while working a full time job.
Why do you think that Women, immigrants and so many others have generational trauma that teaches us to reject our own voice?
When you’re vulnerable, the body enters into fight or flight mode to maximize chances of survival. Even when we reach safety, it’s hard to leave that place. Our brain does it to keep us safe, but the longer people experience trauma, the harder it is to reprogram thinking. I just read the other day how our maternal grandmothers actually held us in their wombs since our mother’s eggs are all developed while she’s in the womb. The trauma of our grandmothers quite directly physically impacts us, so when we work through our own trauma, we are also unpacking generations of it.
Can you give me 5 tips on how to let go and let that creative voice speak?
Exercise. Everyone has creativity inside them, whether you are a painter or an accountant, but we are usually not socialized to exercise our creativity. For me, tapping into my creativity is like Magic Eye, those 90s optical illusion posters. Shifting perspective helps to use another part of the brain and allows that inner voice to emerge. The exercises that have always worked for me are: meditating, practicing kundalini yoga, swimming, reading poetry, and practicing the actual craft. If you want to be a writer, write. If you want to make movies, get a friend and a phone, and make a movie. If you want to paint but have never held a paintbrush before, just pick one up. Nothing is failure in creativity, there is no right or wrong, there is only creation.